Posted on August 18th, 2014 | by Leslie8
My new direction
For the past year and a half I’ve been performing and writing as a full-time musician. I’ve never regretted my decision to leave teaching for a moment, but this new life is not without its ups and downs.
I share a lot of private things publicly, but not all. Sometimes I choose silence. If you’ve paid attention to my songs this summer, you’ll have some idea of where I am: in the dark.
There is light. But in order to reach it again I need to retreat for a while.
I have two more shows this month:
Friday, August 22nd at The Lake Affect (w/ Lorne Allan & Alexander Quail)
Friday, August 29th at The Moonshine Cafe (w/ Danielle Donville, Megan Boni, Chantelle Okel, Gillian Shnurr, Lou Ward, and many more)
Starting in September – and for the foreseeable future – I will no longer be performing solo. Copy Red Leader is still very active, Pent Up plays when we play, the superband-as-yet-unnamed is rehearsing, and Sinderella will one day take the stage again, but Leslie – such as she is – is taking some time off. More than some. At least the rest of 2014.
I need to write. To write and not memorize or perform. To write and be consumed and thereby healed. Not all wounds are recent; not all scars fade.
My fellow musicians and performers, I will still be engaged.
My friends, I will still be there for you as you are for me.
My listeners, I will still be creating and posting and sharing.
But my deeper self and I are spending some time alone. I may not give you the clear access you’ve had to my heart for the past 18 months. I may not be able to tell you how I truly am. If I am aware enough to acknowledge my breaking point, I need to be wise enough to honour the journey that takes me there, and on beyond it.
I promise not to disappear. Do the same for me. Reach out; I won’t always remember to do it myself.
We are connected
But each alone
I am the spider in the web of my own consciousness
Love and light among the shadows, my kindred,