From the recording Reset to Factory Specs
2nd single from the album, Reset to Factory Specs
Memory: I knew how to hide crumbling misery with a smile that convinced the world everything was fine, dressed in my best lust for life and laughter.
Lesson: Choices have consequences time and distance can’t always soften.
Lyrics
I've been sitting with my silence
Thinking isn't this a kindness
Cuz I promised I would keep it
In the place where I keep all your secrets safe
Town to town and tire to tire
Kitchenettes and backyard fires
And miles to reconsider
How you slither slither slithered away
From the skin I wore
Slapped so hard behind closed doors
My smile on upside-down
While I kept finding ways to drown
In bottles and bars and boulevards
Beautiful men and broken down cars
In buttons and buckles and barricades
It's been years since I remembered
How we came to find November
Making all the wrong decisions
With the clearest kind of vision we could
Lie to lie and lull to lull
Catch a falling mirror ball
And years to reconsider
While you slither slither slither away
From the lips I wore
Kissed so hard behind closed doors
My smile on upside-down
While I kept finding ways to drown
In bottles and bars and boulevards
Beautiful men and broken down cars
In buttons and buckles and barricades
All tied up and nowhere to turn
When I tore myself free all our bridges had burned
There was no going back again
So we split up our stuff and we split up our friends
But what they don't know is my gift to you
Costs me as long as I give it
So it can slip through the cracks or I can punch through
This silence just makes me relive it
I've been sitting with my silence
Thinking isn't this a kindness
Cuz I promised I would keep your secrets
But the skin I wore
Was slapped so hard behind closed doors
My smile on upside-down
While I kept finding ways to drown
In bottles and bars and boulevards
Beautiful men and broken down cars
In buttons and buckles and barricades
Buttons and buckles and barricades
I've been sitting with my silence
Thinking isn't this a kindness
Cuz I promised I would keep your secrets