From the recording Reset to Factory Specs
Memory: I begged to be heard, to be trusted, to be given the space to grow wild and free. No matter my chameleon skills, I couldn’t earn acceptance in those eyes.
Lesson: Defy those who would rule you, just to keep you.
Lyrics
I've been outspoken for most of my life
I was an independent unconventional wife
I am a daughter estranged by truth
I've been the woman that I fantasized about in my youth
And I can look back at the patterns
Speckled freckled heckled by compliance
And I can feel the fire
Smoking choking stoking up my young defiance
In that silent era
To that silent era me
I've fought depression for all of my adult life
I've been a drinker, a taker, and danced to the rhythm with strife
I've been addicted to the pleasure of pain
I've been the picture, the mirror, the track and the oncoming train
And I can look back at the patterns
Speckled freckled heckled by compliance
And I can feel the fire
Smoking choking stoking up my young defiance
In that silent era
You didn't hear her but that scream left her throat
All that she had to give's on the cutting room floor
While you get your coat
She memorized her lines note for dubbed-over note
Do it again for the camera
And this time emote
And I can look back at the patterns
Speckled freckled heckled by compliance
And I can feel the fire
Smoking choking stoking up my young defiance
To be free
From what they said I could be
In that silent era
To that silent era me